why in the world would i title this stupid collection of ramblings

it's poodletastic

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 22:51:27 GMT

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/32581670/from/ET/?beginSlide=1#

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 01:23:19 GMT

I have to in this order:

Study French african countries and capitales, also vocab
25 math problems
do the history readings because theres a quiz tomorrow
do the mass amount of bio i have to make up
do the english literary letters

BAH

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 03:41:29 GMT

this is my post, um. POST. there.

what she wants

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 04:05:40 GMT

“Hey sexy.”

I slammed my locker door shut to reveal Amber’s smirking face from where she leaned against the locker next to mine.

“Hey bitch, are we eating outside today?”

She held up a plastic container if salad and a water bottle. I assumed that meant yes. She clicked ahead of me on her heels, the ruffles on her skirt swaying with the motion of her hips.

“Max, you whore, get over here.”

The tall, somber, blonde haired boy slouched to her side, lugging a black backpack with drum sticks zippered in over his books.

“I can’t stay,” he grumbled. “I have practice.”

“You always have drum practice.” Amber whined. “You’re obsessed.”

He shrugged. “Later.” He turned off into a hallway on the right, footsteps echoing in the near empty space.

Amber was pouting.

“It’s good he’s so dedicated. I wish I could play as good as him,” I offered. She ignored me and flicked her hair back, away from her prized scarf. The scarf had been given to her from her rich uncle. It was shimmery and flame colored and I envied it. She knew this and took every opportunity to flaunt it.

Meghan joined us at the door to the sprawl of lawn that surrounded the school. Our senor privileges had earned us the right to eat out here, away from the noisy, claustrophobic crowds of the cafeteria.

It was a nice day out; the sun was shining and birds were chirping. It was warm, but the breeze that softly whistled through was cool. You could almost taste the freshness of the spring. The whole outdoors smelled clean; the earth was thawing and new, green plants were coming to life. The new grass coming in was like fine soft baby’s hair. The ground was mostly solid today with only a few patches of mud between the groups of seniors soaking up the sunlight like plants completing photosynthesis.

Meghan led the way. She was good at finding the dry patches to avoid soiling her shiny boots. I always got mud on my shoes, even when I stepped exactly where Meghan stepped.

We found a relatively dry patch and settled down to our picnic.

My phone mooed toward the edge of my desk. I reached out and snagged it out of the air before it hit the floor.

“Hello?” My voice was thick with grogginess.

“Hey honey. I hope I didn’t wake you.”

I glanced at the clock and mumbled something about how it was only 1 in the morning into the phone.

“Good then you won’t mind coming over to the library right this minute. I need help with some homework.”

I sighed. Amber’s aunt owned the library and she often dragged me out of my bed to “help” her with her homework. Mostly I just did it for her so I could go back to sleep.

I told her I’d be right over, pulled on some jeans and snuck out the window so my mother wouldn’t wake up.

I crawled back through the window around 3 and pulled my jeans off to soak in the sink while I took a shower. I collapsed in bed resigned to sleep like the dead until one minute before school started. I set my alarm clock accordingly.

The next day none of my friends were in school. I thought it was odd but I went to my first period class as usual. I didn’t stop to get my books because I was running late.

When that period was over I went to my locker to drop some things off. I swung the door open and something soft and colorful fluttered to the floor. I bent and picked it up. It was Amber’s scarf. Strange. Amber’s locker was very far away from some of her classes; maybe she was sharing mine now…though I couldn’t remember her ever taking the scarf off even for gym where she tied it up in her hair.

I pulled out my cell phone and called her but it went to her voicemail. I left a message saying that I had her scarf. I put the scarf in my bag and went to science.

In science I got another surprise. I opened my lab desk for my goggles and touched something that wasn’t supposed to be there. I pulled out my goggles along with Matt’s drumsticks. I shuddered and quickly stuffed them into my bag. They had to be playing a trick on me, they just had to be. It wasn’t funny. The drumsticks had dark stains on them.

I wasn’t looking forward to what I would find in my locker as I walked toward gym class, but I knew what to expect. I walked briskly into the locker room, took the boots from the locker-why were they sealed in a plastic bag? - And stuffed them into my backpack. I changed for gym and didn’t look in my bag for the rest of the day.

The day was cooler now as the sun sat lower in the skies. The breeze had become short gusts, coming in bursts to tangle my skirt around my legs and make my hair billow around my face.

The garage sat apart from the house, seldom used. In it my mother and I kept an array of old bikes, sports equipment, boxes of outgrown toys and clothes, and other such clutter that was evacuated during spring cleaning. The arrangement of all the lost and forgotten items left the entire place dreary and mourning for company.

My mother had sent me out there to find the box of cookbooks because she had decided to interrupt the usual takeout out with home a cooked meal.

I opened the door and shuffled in, the movement echoing and becoming distorted as it bounced of the decoupage of items strewn about.

I steered around a mountain of boxes and came to an open pocket at the back of the garage. I gaped in open- mouthed horror at the gruesome sight in front of me.

Amber was slumped in a chair, her eyes bulging from her face, her hands forming claws to scratch at something invisible around her neck, the skin there angry red and purple. Matt with his hands tied over his head, all the fingers gone, and his eyes nothing but bloody holes. Meghan was in a corner all color drained out of her into the tub of blood below where her feet once where.

It all came back to me in a rush. I had done this. I recalled the way the material of the scarf bit into my hands as I pulled it tighter around a struggling Amber’s neck, Matt’s screams as I cut all his fingers away, one by one, the dripping of Meghan’s blood.

I remembered all the things hidden around the school and smiled. The sun burned in the sky a bright red like a fresh tomato. I heard my mother calling to me from the house so I picked up the box of cookbooks and left, closing the door tightly behind me.

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 02:15:55 GMT

do we go abck on the 7th or 8th? help.

It's Teh Vacation

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 15:43:22 GMT

look a puppy

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 19:43:46 GMT

Quick! Someone yell at me!

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 22:36:08 GMT

...ow...

whoot.

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 16:32:55 GMT

tok marta and haley to cape cod and had a super lovely time. listened to music on the way down, watched stay alive and trigun and ate pizza upon arrival, haley and i slept in one bed, marta in the other, then we got up and watched saturday morning cartoons, and ate cereal, went walking on the beach, imaginating and collecting shells, went shopping and bought cookies and cheesy crackers and had a mini feast, but were still hungry and marta and mom had to pee so we stopped at mcdonalds and got fat. then slept on the car ride home...

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 16:04:49 GMT

secrets...everyones talking about secrets...do i keep secrets?...i cant remember...

lovely

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 22:50:49 GMT

ok everyone duck1130 is jen so add her as ur friend mmkay?

hows that for direct?

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 02:59:41 GMT

my parents love me and i know it anyone who reads this if i start trash talking them slap me. hard.

dont read! this is just some fucked up thoughts i needed to get out and totally not worth ur time.

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 02:53:12 GMT

... my parents are thinking about letting me go back to littleton next year and if they say yes, im going. i dont even have to think about it at this piont. my soul is dieing at lawrence and im very disgusted with myself all. the. time. its not normal for me. and i miss all of us being together. i want it to b last year again. T_T i constently ask myself wtf was i thinking letting my parents talk me into this. i i always answer the same way. i was not ready for high school anywhere especailly not in littleton. since ngp is like going back to kindergarden it didnt freak me out and now that ive got a hang of it i think littleton wont make me want to kill myself. last year was the best but it made me unprepared for high school entirely because i care too much. i give myself away. soon there will be nothing left but a hollowed out shell of who i once was. i dont want to become one of these super depressed rich kids whose parents consantly give guilt money to make up for them not being there or being awful to them. i dont want to have to deal with the fucked up ness of the world. for chrissakes what is wrong with humanity?! we fucking destroy everything we touch! and im rambling and need to stop. and i probably wont post this....or maybe i will (as i hit the post button) i need to get some self control. and i need to write now. the drunken naked man commands it. and marta explain to me the analogy for ur mind again, i got calvins but i totally forgot urs....

i feel like smashing smashing smashing thats right make it all go away

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 00:42:03 GMT

i dunno what it is but its there. not depression. not sadness. not anger per say. i think its must be disgust. oh how i know thee well. i welcome it with open arms. alack alack alack....repetition. thats why i hate school. the same exact thing, every. single. fucking. day. its like bashing ur head against a wall. do it long enough and the pain ebbs away, not long after that ur either unconsious or dead. i should be doing homework....i really should. but again with the "why should i?" attidude. and they thought sending me to private school would make it all go away. poor, pathetic, hopeful beings. go buy a car or something for chrissakes. dont waste ur time or money. some things just wont go away. the rain only cleanses so much....

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:41:24 GMT

WHY THE HELL NOT! ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS! DONT TRY TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS UNTIL YOU SOLVE YOUR OWN! LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!
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...old habits, die hard.

SHUKDv

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 01:44:45 GMT

i need to kill/hurt something, marta, get over here now. and i need someone to talk me out of it, haley, my inner vioce alone isnt working anymore...i need you guys...

egeus is inside growling, wanting to kill kill kill...

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 01:37:34 GMT

must remember to not get attached. you are not who i imagine you to be, want you to be. you never can be that person, those people. i must remember that the only one trying is me and that if i left it wouldnt effect your life as much as if you left my life. must remember to kill self. must remember to not get attached.

tommorrow i revert back to old habits, i feel the twitches and tendacies(sp?) coming back to me. no denying, no stopping. hopefully only for one day. because ive given away too much of myself already.

the sky looks tinted

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 03:22:56 GMT

sitting here with a bandaid on my leg to stop the blood from running down my leg cause its annoying. trying to finish all this fucking homework. the sky is tinted red...dont tell me the sun's rising already. oh shit i need to go pretend to sleep. no more chugging whatever the hell that drink was. ever. oh btw my leg is/was bleeding cause i was running after fenn and izzy and i tripped, fell, and rolled. on the pavement. ouch. and everybody laughed at me. weeee katies hurt. lets stand over her and laugh. hahaha soo funny. im ok though. ^_^ sleepytime....

"Another unfamiliar ceiling...."

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 21:23:30 GMT

i havent updated in a bit and i feel i should but i have nothing to say and so i die die die die die die ok im dead now.

XP

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 18:27:12 GMT

Forced to finish the homework instead of playing Maplestory. oh poo

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 20:21:30 GMT

weapon.

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 20:19:16 GMT

i just got back from ice skating. and im in an immense amount of pain. my cousins and sister decided that the funnest game to play is "chase katie and knock her down" so here i am, bruised and bloodied. take a good look. this is all the proof you'll ever need. chldren are evil.

went out with marta yesterday to see aragon. it was suckish. but i was rather expecting it. and we did have a good time making fun of it. marta and i were 1 of the 2 pairs of people there without small children. and a woman answered her phone during the movie and went off to the side. basically shouting into the phone. "no i hafta call you back, i'm in the movie eragon! no with tiim. no. yes. no. eragon." it just went on and on. i was contemplating throwing something at her when she hung up and sat down. ruining all my fun. and we didnt get to play the zombie game. not even once. :'( came home and was dragged into a game of "extreme monopoly". "its monopoly, to the extreme!"

hope to go shopping tommorrow and to tim's party after work.

spent 4 fucking on on the ngp hw and screwing around on my computer.

last night i couldnt sleep. i wrote my story. ate myself into a coma. and put another 15 glasses into pickling myself for further use, ruining my liver just for fun. then i had a fucked up dream that i cant remember.

thus is the holiday spent.

a day full of useless excitement

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 18:24:49 GMT

today so far has been rather suckish. here is the list of all the things that went wrong today.

1. my mom woke me up by saying "katie get up, its like pouring outside!" however in my half asleep state "pourin" sounded like "porn". so i got all excited and looked out the window, but alas was vastly disappionted.

2. upon looking out the window i saw the reflection off the cul-da-sack (apparently end of the bag in french, how strange.) just right so it looked like snow. i was all like OMG SNOW!!!!! i instantly pressed my face against the window only to find it was the reflection of the rain. oh poo.:(

3. i took a shower got dressed, ext. and went downstairs and my dad was all like, "katie look its snowing!" and i was all loike "really?!?!" he was like "no." then he laughed at me. :'(

4. had to clean for relitives coming over.

one good thing about today was.

got to talk to blaine, who i havent seen since the last day of school....

serenityluna87 (12:40:23 PM): hey

serenityluna87 (12:40:37 PM): u kno we havent seen each other since the last day of school?

walkingpolarity (12:41:03 PM): yeah

walkingpolarity (12:41:06 PM): i noticed

walkingpolarity (12:41:08 PM): =(

serenityluna87 (12:41:13 PM): thats waaay to long

walkingpolarity (12:41:18 PM): =(

sniff. alright. later babes.

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 01:49:49 GMT

serenityluna87 (8:18:34 PM): they need to make a 2nd season for fruba right now *stamps foot*

TiggerTrigger2 (8:19:05 PM): hahaha yesss they really do

TiggerTrigger2 (8:19:08 PM): you watching it now?

serenityluna87 (8:19:23 PM): no but i was

TiggerTrigger2 (8:20:56 PM): fun!

TiggerTrigger2 (8:20:59 PM): favorite?

serenityluna87 (8:21:05 PM): what?

serenityluna87 (8:21:20 PM): chracter? episode? food? sex position?

TiggerTrigger2 (8:22:14 PM): hahahahaha

TiggerTrigger2 (8:22:17 PM): ALL OF THE ABOVE!
~

serenityluna87 (9:04:47 PM): its too happy for me

TiggerTrigger2 (9:05:00 PM): oh haha am I too happy for you?

serenityluna87 (9:05:11 PM): talk to the livejournal honey

TiggerTrigger2 (9:05:17 PM): hahahaha

TiggerTrigger2 (9:05:28 PM): riiiight

TiggerTrigger2 (9:05:56 PM): *hi, mr katie's livejournal! my name's Irene. how are you today?*

serenityluna87 (9:06:07 PM): my livejournals a girl

serenityluna87 (9:06:12 PM): and now uve gone and insulted her

TiggerTrigger2 (9:06:18 PM): I'm sorry, miss

serenityluna87 (9:06:23 PM): u will be smote for ur insolence!

TiggerTrigger2 (9:06:31 PM): oh noooo

serenityluna87 (9:06:35 PM): pancakes of death!

TiggerTrigger2 (9:06:35 PM): smote?

serenityluna87 (9:06:37 PM): get her!

serenityluna87 (9:06:44 PM): smited?

TiggerTrigger2 (9:06:49 PM): there we go

TiggerTrigger2 (9:06:51 PM): haha

serenityluna87 (9:06:53 PM): i like smote better

serenityluna87 (9:07:00 PM): *crosses arms and pouts*

serenityluna87 (9:07:05 PM): anyway

serenityluna87 (9:07:23 PM): ur running from the pancakes, no correcting me!

TiggerTrigger2 (9:07:40 PM): haha okay OH NOOOOO HELP ME

TiggerTrigger2 (9:07:45 PM): HELLLLLLLP

TiggerTrigger2 (9:07:46 PM): ME

serenityluna87 (9:08:02 PM): *evil chuckle*

TiggerTrigger2 (9:09:07 PM): OH NO

TiggerTrigger2 (9:09:10 PM): help

TiggerTrigger2 (9:09:12 PM): gahhhhhh

serenityluna87 (9:10:05 PM): hee!

serenityluna87 (9:10:28 PM): ok go ahead and eat them now

serenityluna87 (9:10:33 PM): theyre chocolate chip

serenityluna87 (9:10:42 PM): the flavor of evil!

TiggerTrigger2 (9:10:52 PM): I like ...chocolate

serenityluna87 (9:11:21 PM): my family is calling me

serenityluna87 (9:11:45 PM): *antenea buzzing*

TiggerTrigger2 (9:11:54 PM): hahahaha

T_T never boring around here....

and u'll never geuss what happened today!

my mom came home and was all like "hey 2nd favorite child, what do you want for christmas?"
and then i was all like "mother, just having you around, knowing thast you love me, even though i dont deserve it, that is the best present of all."
she smiled and said "oh how nice."
i burst out laughing as soon as she left the room, my father scolded me for being sarcastic...

ok children, story time is over now, go burn all your parents favorite possesions mm-kay? ^_^

purgatory isnt fun

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 18:25:29 GMT

*sigh* he has found a newer, prettier model and truth be told i'm not that upset. also i'm going to laugh when she dumps his sorry ass when someone richer comes along. and then he'll come crawling back to me. and i'll be like hell no. cause once you get rid of katie you dont get her back. he will regret it. but i wont. i enjoy the freedom not having to be an arm jewel. yay! so who shall i go with next? any takers?